The transition though is a little bittersweet. Women in the summer months have a certain look and these simple fashion choices I find extremely appealing. Cutely cropped bobs or long hair up in the back, revealing a slender neck is fantastic. Halter tops in all styles, colours and materials look absolutely beautiful matched up with a pair of capris. Finish it off with a pair of feminine sandals whether they be heels or flats and my oh my am I off to the races. Jeweled or beaded up flip-flops even look great with painted toenails to match. To me, women look the best during this time of year and I simply adore the femininity that unknowingly oozes from these beautiful creatures. God I love it.
So in the last couple weeks, there have been the odd days where the weather has been warm enough for many women to still be in this Summer mode. The visual pervert that I am, I'm taking it all in because I know shortly it will be all over until Spring. Even Bella, during her last application of toenail polish exclaimed that this would be the final painting. Spending time together shopping at the local shoe stores for some strappy summer styles is something that is done for the year. I'll miss it.
Speaking of Bella, from a D/s standpoint we seem to be in this perpetual holding pattern. Life is good here though and we're getting along splendidly which is always good for the boy. The boy just started high school and I can already see the small personality changes that come with mid adolescence. I know the next 4 years are going to need some real focus from us as parents so it's great that Bella and I aren't fighting our own battles. So far I've been keeping my monster sated with regular masturbation but lately even that hasn't been all that good. In fact masturbation has been so mundane that I've started to wonder about my libido. I was certain that with all the visual stimulus summer brings my libido would be running full tilt but it hasn't seemed to happen that way. It has me wondering what the winter months will hold for me because with everyone all wrapped up in warm clothes and sandals put away for the season, the visual stimuli will be completely gone.
Still, there are things that are part of our regular everyday life here that feeds my monster a little. Certain tasks are still expected of me from within a D/s structure or context. The presence of that structure sates me I have no doubt. For example if Bella and I are sitting on the couch together she completely expects me to caress her feet. There are times when my enthusiasm can be less than stellar and she makes sure to tell me when she's not pleased with my efforts. Even if my mind isn't into the task, her critique of my service does affect me emotionally. It certainly reminds me that although D/s isn't in full bloom here we're not exactly vanilla either.
One particular evening Bella had me continue the foot "worship" as she retired for bed which led to a very exciting episode for me. As she readied her self for bed I found myself a small stool so that I could sit at the end of her bad and do a good job for her. I was in a productive submissive mood and just felt like doing a good job for her. As she laid on her back with her feet extending out the bottom of the covers I began with a nice massage using some peppermint foot cream. I concentrated on being completely thorough and didn't rush to get things done. After the massage I continued with some caressing paying no attention to the time. As Bella lay there in a very comfortable state she'd often let me know what I was doing was pleasing by making small noises or taking deep cleansing breaths. For me this was immensely pleasing and it wasn't long before I found myself leaking with excitement. I then tried something different...
... Bella has never been one for liking kisses on the feet or the sucking of any toes. In fact she downright was repulsed by it the first time I tried it on her many years ago. However in her current relaxed state I thought I'd give it another try. (Not to mention that it was very pleasing for me to in my excited state) I started very very slow. Small delicate kisses on the sides, then a few high in her arch. I placed a few kisses on each of her toes but didn't dive into anything too overwhelming. Her body language was telling me that she was enjoying this immensely. I kept this up for some time and for a moment my thoughts got the best of me and all I could think about was my collar. How I wished I had it on and could feel the lock jingling in it's place on the buckle. It wasn't long before I was probably more excited than she was.
After about an hour had passed I thought I'd sneak in an orgasm for her to perfectly finish her off. The gentle kisses that had began at her toes started to migrate upwards and it wasn't before long that I was slowly bringing her to a maddening orgasm. In fact she was so receptive at that point that after coming down from the first one I gently swirled out a second one. As she lay floating a little I took a towel and made sure her feet where comfy and free of any excess cream. By the time I was done Bella looked peaceful enough that she probably was about to drift off to sleep so I kissed her quietly and let her be. (we sleep in separate rooms)
We spoke of this later and she enjoyed it immensely. I was hoping that this activity would be something that perhaps she'd expect from me and that somehow I could work my collar in but we've really not revisited this since. Certainly I could just go ahead and ask permission and I'm sure she'd accept but something in me just yearns for her dominant role to have a part in this.
So I guess that's why it's been so long since I've posted. From a D/s perspective very little is happening in our relationship although I can't complain about the current state of things. The boy needs our focus on being parents and my vanilla relationship with Bella is working just fine.
Although I still yearn and wish I could sate my needs.